Healing using Poetry

Healing with the use of Poetry

Background: My underlying philosophy was to attempt to stop defending myself when I became cognizant of an irrational sense of panic that would arise when confronted with very specific events. I would first attempt to find a way to stay with the feelings of panic and then see what lay behind my thoughts and feelings attached to the panic.

Then I wanted to express my experience in the form of a poem. In order to do this I allowed myself some time to specifically invite and welcome the 'dreaded feelings of panic' - which is when I experienced a surprising result. Please enjoy :)

My Innocence Returned

I let the panic come.

But, this time

I found a way to stay.

I didn't move,

as it washed over me,

a tsunami of emotion.

This once,

I did not keep 'busy',

defending myself

against my thoughts

of what I called, "Panic".

Instead I found myself

set free.

The thoughts no more,

....than thoughts

rendered harmless,

their effects,

no more.

It was then

that I felt,

something coming.

A treasure,

being revealed.

A presence emerging

Pale translucent,

she once hid.

The colors of night

all around her

embedded

in shades of darkest blue.

"Hello", I said softly

and she looked at me.

"You are beautiful", I said,

So innocent and pure.

You are that part of me

which left in fear.

And all this time,

when I felt the panic

I had run too.

I never once imagined

you were hidden

under it.

Your gentle presence,

waiting in the dark.

A little willingness,

to but change my mind

released and rescued

us both in time.

I found you !

My Innocence Returned